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Apr. 3rd, 2008 12:51 pm.......Do I really complain too much? Or is it just the fact that I post too early and my posts get buried under everything else? >>; I'm a little pissed off that no one ever really responds with any sense of "everything'll be fine" or any sense of "i can help you through this", though I see everyone do it for everyone else.
Can I say I'm feeling a liiiitle bit rejected here?
I'm probably overreacting, because I tend to overreact and ruminate on things and keep them to myself, but....really. i'm stressed and I'm getting depressed by a lot of things...and the fact that sometimes I feel like I have no support, even though I know that's not true.
I'm tempted to drop out of paixao, but I don't want to do that. But I feel like it's going to come to either dropping or requesting an extended hiatus, which I don't think is fair to anyone. I just don't feel like I can keep up right now. I can't keep my mood up, I can't keep my enthusiasm up... Hell,I'm even struggling with WR, and that's not even an intensive RP. >.>; It's a post-whenever-RP....
This depression and inability to do ANYTHING productive, is why I'm working to make an appointment for diagnostic testing by the end of this year(i have one more month of school and i believe all my classes that have exams are take-homes, except one. AND that all of those are due on the same day, which gives me from May 8th to May 13th at noon to clean up and relax a bit). I'll probably end up sending most of my stuff home during that weekend[the fridge, the clothes, most of my books, basically everything except my bedsheets, my laptop, cleaning supplies, and a couple outfits] and stay til closing to calm down. because once i get home, no one's going to listen when i say i want "me time". I hate being home.
and yeah because I'm asking for someone to do the tl;dr and because i don't think people are reading this isn't cut. >>;Yeah sometimes I'm an ass.
Can I say I'm feeling a liiiitle bit rejected here?
I'm probably overreacting, because I tend to overreact and ruminate on things and keep them to myself, but....really. i'm stressed and I'm getting depressed by a lot of things...and the fact that sometimes I feel like I have no support, even though I know that's not true.
I'm tempted to drop out of paixao, but I don't want to do that. But I feel like it's going to come to either dropping or requesting an extended hiatus, which I don't think is fair to anyone. I just don't feel like I can keep up right now. I can't keep my mood up, I can't keep my enthusiasm up... Hell,I'm even struggling with WR, and that's not even an intensive RP. >.>; It's a post-whenever-RP....
This depression and inability to do ANYTHING productive, is why I'm working to make an appointment for diagnostic testing by the end of this year(i have one more month of school and i believe all my classes that have exams are take-homes, except one. AND that all of those are due on the same day, which gives me from May 8th to May 13th at noon to clean up and relax a bit). I'll probably end up sending most of my stuff home during that weekend[the fridge, the clothes, most of my books, basically everything except my bedsheets, my laptop, cleaning supplies, and a couple outfits] and stay til closing to calm down. because once i get home, no one's going to listen when i say i want "me time". I hate being home.
and yeah because I'm asking for someone to do the tl;dr and because i don't think people are reading this isn't cut. >>;
